Friday, September 12, 2008

If a Narcissist Had an Anthem...

...it might be this song.


Why I Lie
by Liz Phair

If you ask me why I lie to you
I can tell you I don't know myself
Its amazingly dishonest
But I'd have to recognize it
As part of myself

Straighten up
Why can't you straighten up
I've heard you tell me this
So many times
It doesn't even stick

I get it all the time
I get it all the time
You know I love to make
A joke of it

And if you ask me why I hurt you
I don't understand it
I can't help myself
Its a special combination
Of predatory instinct
And simple ill will

I would give some thought to it
If I thought that it might do me
Some good
Some good

Straighten up
Why can't you straighten up
You always say I'll lose
Control of it
And thirty is not too old

Well momma I would give some thought to it
If I thought that it might do me
Some good
Some good
Some good

14 comments:

  1. "I have all kinds of mental pictures immediately flashing in my head where I see myself listening for hours and hours and hours to the narcissists I've had in my life. I've probably lost entire years of my life listening to narcissists. I started being called a "good listener" by people since I hit junior high school age." I could have wrote that paragraph myself! I can only imagine how many hours, days, months and years were wasted on these so-called "conversations"!

    For the longest time I thought I was truly in relationships/friendships with people. Being the constant "listener" in the relationship was what I was used to. It just felt plain right to always be on the receiving end. But then as I gradually "saw the light", I constantly had this horrible empty feeling after talking with a N. I remember thinking a lot, "Why does it ALWAYS have to be ALL about you?!!"

    Little did I know I was dealing with N's. Now I'm more in tune with what people are actually saying -- just like Anna said. And now I make the choice whether I want to listen to people who are all about themselves all the time. And if I don't feel like listening, I move on quick. I know they'll find someone else to dump on, so I don't feel bad at all for making a run for it.

    Another great post Anna!

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  2. I always liked "Behind Blue Eyes" by the WHO for their anthem.

    Or "I'm Too Sexy"? LOL

    Anyway, good one!

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  3. How 'bout this one? I found a website that has a few poems about Narcissism. This was my 'favorite'...Ugh!


    LA HAINE


    It starts as a small little thing,
    indignation at a trespass,
    anger, having been wronged.
    It grows into a flag,
    parading first down small streets,
    sweeping up the meanderers,
    then avenues and winning crowds,
    cheers along the way.
    It writes an anthem,
    builds a campaign.
    Marching through the mind
    it settles thoroughly in memory and vein,
    changing our posture,
    the way we hold our chin.
    By the time it reaches bone,
    it has eaten through sinew and spine,
    cost us all that was benign.
    Then, rises up the starless night,
    no song no light.
    Suddenly afraid,
    we want it out:
    cut, poison, burn the blighted stem.
    But rampant right breeds cell on cell
    out of control,
    And having eaten heart
    it eats the soul.

    Susan Dane
    ow 'bout this one?

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  4. it's funny that you posted an anthem for the narcissists of this world, because i've been rocking out to some great music that hits a chord with the n's in my life lately.

    anthems for n's..


    "One"
    Alanis Morissette

    I am the biggest hypocrite
    I've been undeniably jealous
    I have been loud and pretentious
    I have been utterly threatened
    I've gotten candy for my self-interest
    The sexy treadmill capitalist
    Heaven forbid I be criticized
    Heaven forbid I be ignored

    I have abused my power forgive me
    You mean we actually are all one?
    one one one one one one one
    I've been out of reach and separatist
    Heaven forbid average (whatever average means)
    I have compensated for my days
    of powerlessness

    I have abused my so-called power forgive me
    You mean we actually are all one?
    one one one one one one one

    Did you just call her amazing?
    Surely we both can't be amazing!
    And give up my hard earned status
    as fabulous freak of nature?

    I have abused my power forgive me
    You mean we actually are all one?
    one one one one one one one
    Always looked good on paper
    Sounded good in theory


    "Eight Easy Steps"
    Alanis Morissette

    How to stay paralyzed by fear of abandonment
    How to defer to men in solveable predicaments
    How to control someone to be a carbon copy of you
    How to have that not work and have them run away from you

    How to keep people at arms length and never get too close
    How to mistrust the ones who supposedly love the most
    How to pretend you're fine and don't need help from anyone
    How to feel worthless unless you're serving or helping someone

    I'll teach you all this in 8 easy steps
    A course of a lifetime you'll never forget
    I'll show you how to in 8 easy steps
    I'll show you how leaderships looks when taught by the best

    How to hate women when you're supposed to be a feminist
    How to play all pious when you're really a hypocrite
    How to hate god when you're a prayer and a spiritualist
    How to sabotage your fantasies by fears of success

    I've been doing research for years
    I've been practicing my ass off
    I've been training my whole life for this moment I swear to you
    Culminating just to be this well-versed leader before you

    How to lie to yourself and thereby to everyone else
    How to keep smiling when you're thinking of killing yourself
    How to numb a la holic to avoid going within
    How to stay stuck in blue by blaming them for everything


    anthems for me..


    "Straitjacket"
    Alanis Morissette

    Something so benign from me construed as cruelty
    Such a difference between who I am and who you see

    Conclusions you come to of me routinely incorrect
    I don’t know who you’re talking to with such f*cking disrespect

    This shit’s making me crazy
    The way you nullify what’s in my head
    You say one thing do another
    And argue that’s not what you did
    Your way’s making me mental
    How you filter as skewed interpret
    I swear you won’t be happy til
    I am bound in a straight jacket

    Talking with you’s like talking to a sive that can’t hear me
    You fight me tooth and nail to disavow what’s happening

    Your resistance to a mirror I feel screaming from your body
    One day I’ll introduce myself and you’ll see you’ve not yet met me

    This shit’s making me crazy
    The way you nullify what’s in my head
    You say one thing do another
    And argue that’s not what you did
    Your way’s making me mental
    How you filter as skewed interpret
    I swear you won’t be happy til
    I am bound in a straight jacket

    Grand dissonance
    The strings of my puppet are cut
    The end of an era
    Your discrediting’s lost my consent


    "Versions Of Violence"
    Alanis Morissette

    Coercing or leaving
    Shutting down and punishing
    Running from rooms, defending
    Withholding, justifying

    These versions of violence
    Sometimes subtle sometimes clear
    And the ones that go unnoticed
    Still leave their mark once disappeared

    Diagnosing, analyzing
    Unsolicited advice
    Explaining and controlling,
    Judging opining and meddling

    These versions of violence
    Sometimes subtle sometimes clear
    And the ones that go unnoticed
    Still leave their mark once disappeared

    This labeling
    This pointing
    this sensitive's unraveling
    This sting I've been ignoring
    I feel it way down way down

    These versions of violence
    Sometimes subtle sometimes clear
    And the ones that go unnoticed
    Still leave their mark once disappeared


    "Can't Not"
    Alanis Morissette

    I'd be lying if I said I was completely unscathed
    I might be proving you right with my silence or my retaliation
    Would I be letting you win in my non reaction?
    How would I explain?
    How would I explain this to my children if I had them?
    Because I can't not
    Because I can't not
    Because I can't afford to be misread one more time
    Would I be whining if I said I needed a hug?
    Would you feel slighted if I said your love's not enough?
    How can I complain?
    How can I complain when i'm the one who reaches for it?
    Because I can't not
    Because I can't not
    Because I cannot walk without my crutches
    Because I can't not
    Because I can't not
    Because I can't help wonder why you ask me
    To all the unheard wisdom in the schoolyard
    You think you're the right ones
    You think you're the charmed ones I'm sure
    How can you go on with such conviction?
    And who do you think you are why do you question me?
    Because we can't not
    Because we can't not
    Because we can't help laugh at underestimations
    Because we can't not
    Because we can't not
    Because we can't afford to be misled one more time
    Because we can't not
    Because we can't not
    Because we cannot help without your willingness
    Why do you affect me? Why do you affect me still?
    Why do you hinder me? Why do you hinder me still?
    Why do you unnerve? Why do you unnerve me still?
    Why do you trigger me? Why do you trigger me still?

    happy listening,
    h.

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  5. "Liar" Song by Henry Rollins

    Here's the video link:
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fxrd_jZJxkg

    you think you`re gonna to live your life alone
    in darkness
    and seclusion
    yeah I know
    you`ve been out there
    tried to mix with those animals
    and it just left you full of humiliated confusion
    so you stagger back home
    and wait for nothing
    but the solitary refinement of your room spits you back out onto the street
    and now you`re desperate
    and in need of human contact
    and then
    you meet me
    and you whole world changes
    because everything I say is everything you`ve ever wanted to hear
    so you drop all your defenses and you drop all your fears
    and you trust me completely
    I`m perfect
    in every way
    cause I make you feel so strong and so powerful inside
    you feel so lucky
    but your ego obscures reality
    and you never bother to wonder why
    things are going so well
    you wanna know why?
    cause I`m a liar
    yeah I`m a liar
    I`ll tear your mind out
    I`ll burn your soul
    I`ll turn you into me
    I`ll turn you into me
    cause I`m a liar, a liar
    a liar, a liar

    I`ll hide behind a smile
    and understanding eyes
    and I`ll tell you things that you already know
    so you can say
    I really identify with you, so much
    and all the time that you`re needing me
    is just the time that I`m bleeding you
    don`t you get it yet?
    I`ll come to you like an affliction
    and I`ll leave you like an addiction
    you`ll never forget me
    you wanna know why?
    cause I`m a liar
    yeah I`m a liar
    I`ll rip your mind out
    I`ll burn your soul
    I`ll turn you into me
    I`ll turn you into me
    cause I`m a liar, a liar
    liar, liar, liar, liar

    I don`t know why I feel the need to lie
    and cause you so much pain
    maybe it`s something inside
    maybe it`s something I can`t explain
    cause all I do
    is mess you up and lie to you
    I`m a liar
    oh, I am a liar

    if you`ll give me one more chance
    I swear that I will never lie to you again
    because now I see the destructive power of a lie
    they`re stronger than truth
    I can`t believe I ever hurt you
    I swear
    I will never to you lie again, please
    just give me one more chance
    I will never lie to you again
    I swear
    that I will never tell a lie
    I will never tell a lie
    no, no
    ha ha ha ha ha hah haa haa haa haaa
    sucker
    sucker!
    oh, sucker
    I am a liar
    yeah, I am a liar
    yeah I like it
    I feel good
    ohh I am a liar
    yeah
    I lie
    I lie
    I lie
    oh, I lie
    oh I lie
    I lie
    yeah
    ohhh I`m a liar
    I lie
    yeah
    I like it
    I feel good
    I`ll lie again
    and again
    I`ll lie again and again
    and I`ll keep lying
    I promise

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  6. i know.. just one more. this is definitely a victory anthem for me as far as my n-mil.

    "Unprodigal Daughter"
    Alanis Morissette

    I had disengaged to avoid being totalled
    I would run away and say good riddance soon enough
    I had grown disgusted by your small-minded ceiling
    To imagining myself bolting had not been difficult

    Soon be my life
    Soon be my pace
    Soon be my choice of which you'll have no part of

    Unprodigal Daughter and I'm heading for the west
    Disenchanted daughter and this plane cannot fly fast enough
    Unencumbered daughter hit the ground running at last!
    I'd invite you but I'm busy being unoppressed

    I hit the ground running although I know not what toward
    I hit the town reeling forgetting all that came before
    I felt primed and ready unsurrounded by the pawns
    I felt culture shocked, but dissuaded, I was not

    This is my town
    This is my voice
    This is my taste of what you've have no part of

    Unprodigal Daughter and I'm heading for the west
    Disenchanted daughter and this plane cannot fly fast enough
    Unencumbered daughter hit the ground running at last!
    I'd invite you but I'm busy being unoppressed

    One day I'll saddle back and speak foreign adventures
    One day I'll double back and tell you about these unfettered years
    One day I'll look back and feel something other than relieved
    Glad that I left when I did before you dear, you can't get the best of me

    When I'd speak of artistry you would roll your eyes skyward
    When I'd speak of spirituality you'd label me absurd
    When I spoke of impossibility you would frown and shake your head
    If I had stayed much longer I'd have surely imploded

    These are my words
    This is my house
    These are my friends of which you've had no part of

    Unprodigal Daughter and I'm heading for the west
    Disenchanted daughter and this plane cannot fly fast enough
    Unencumbered daughter hit the ground running at last!
    I'd invite you but I'm busy being unoppressed

    Unprodigal Daughter and I'm heading for the west
    Disenchanted daughter and this plane cannot fly fast enough
    Unencumbered daughter hit the ground running at last!
    I'd invite you but I'm busy being unoppressed


    great songs everyone! music is definitely one of my biggest ways of dealing with my emotions stemming from the n's in my life. thanks for sharing. =)

    h.

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  7. My paternal grandmother was a narcissist. I was her only grandchild. I would fail to meet her lofty, undisclosed "standards" and the guilt tips were unbearable. With her, it was always something. She has been gone now for 5 years. I thought it would get better, but her youngest son picked up where she left off with his own special brand of narcissism.

    After the death of my grandmother, my grandfather was lonely, vulnerable, and in ever worsening health. "Uncle Greedy" as my father and I now refer to him undertook a 3 year campaign of undue influence, financial exploitation of his frail father. During this time my grandfather executed 5 codicils to his will, each benefitting uncle greedy more and more until he was slated to end up with all of the land, mineral rights, and (of course) was to be executor and trustee so that he would be in total control. We are currently in the process of suing him for several torts, but any way we go, he still benefits from his evil undertaking. (He is a lawyer, by the way - so there is little we can do to undo some of the benefits he will receive.

    I am a believer that Knowledge is a treatment for fear, and that fear comes from loss of control, My quest for knowledge and information to explain how a human being could possibly do what Uncle Greedy has done. which is what led me to your blog.

    Anyway - I was so angry, upset, dumbfounded, and disgusted that I made a CD with songs that either described my vast spectrum of my feelings, or described Uncle Greedy.

    Here are the lyrics to a few of them:


    Bottom
    (written by Henry Rollins)
    Performed by Tool and Henry Rollins

    Compassion is broken now.
    My will is eroded now,
    and my desire is broken now
    and it makes me feel ugly.

    I'm on my knees and burning.
    My piss and moans are the fuel that,
    set my head on fire.
    So smell my soul is burning.

    And I'm broken, looking up to see the enemy.

    And I have swallowed the poison you feed me...
    but I survive on the poison you feed me
    Leaving me
    guilt fed,
    hatred fed,
    weakness fed..
    and it makes me feel ugly.

    On my knees and burning.
    My piss and moans are the fuel that
    set my head on fire.
    I'm dead inside!

    (Shit ads up 3x)
    Shit adds up at the bottom...

    -Henry Rollins: If I let you, you would make me destroy myself. But in order to survive you, I must first survive myself. I can sink no further and I cannot forgive you. There's no choice but to confront you, to engage you, to erase you. I've gone to great lengths to expand my threshold of pain. I will use my mistakes against you. There's no other choice. Shameless now. Nameless now. Nothing now. No one now. But my soul must be iron because my fear is naked. I'm naked and fearless.
    And my fear is naked!

    (Dead inside. 4x)
    Needless now,
    shameless now,
    nothing now,
    no one now.
    (Shit adds up 4x)
    You see me naked now,
    fearless now,
    naked now,
    fearless now.
    You see... shit adds up.
    Shit adds, shit adds, shit adds up.
    It leaves me (dead inside 3x),
    dead, inside!

    Hatred keeps me alive,
    ugliness keeps me alive,
    weakness keeps me alive,
    guilt keeps me alive
    at the bottom!


    INTOLERANCE
    by TOOL

    I don't want to be hostile.
    I don't want to be dismal.
    And I don't want to rot in an apathetic existence.
    See I want to believe you,
    and I want to trust
    and I want to have faith to put away the dagger.

    But you lie, cheat and steal.
    And I tolerate you.

    but you lie, cheat and steal.
    How can I tolerate..

    veil of virtue hung to hide your method
    while I smile and laugh and dance
    and sing your praise and glory.
    shroud of virtue hung to mask your stigma
    as I smile and laugh and dance
    and sing your glory
    while you

    lie, cheat, and steal.
    how can I tolerate you?

    our guilt, our blame,
    I've been far too sympathetic.
    our blood, our fault
    I've been far too sympathetic

    I am not innocent
    I am not innocent.
    you are not innocent.
    no one is innocent.

    You lie cheat and steal

    How can I tolerate you?

    I will not tolerate you.
    I will go down beside you.
    I must go down beside you.

    No one is innocent

    Lie!

    WALK
    by PANTERA

    Can't you see I'm easily bothered by persistence
    One step from lashing out at you...
    You want in to get under my skin
    And call yourself a friend
    I've got more friends like you
    What do I do?

    (pre) is there no standard anymore?
    What it takes, who I am, where I've been
    Belong
    You can't be something you're not
    Be yourself, by yourself
    Stay away from me
    A lesson learned in life
    Known from the dawn of time

    respect, walk

    Run your mouth when I'm not around
    It's easy to achieve
    You cry to weak friends that sympathize
    Can you hear the violins playing your song?
    Those same friends tell me your every word

    Are you talking to me?
    No way punk

    JERK OFF
    by TOOL

    "Used to be a bunch of assholes that lived in this part of the building here.
    But we systematically removed them like you would any kind of termite or
    roach."
    Someone told me once that there's a right and wrong.
    Punishment was cure for those who dare to cross the line.
    But it must not be true for jerk-offs just like you.
    And maybe it takes longer to catch a total asshole.
    But I'm tired of waiting.
    Someone told me once that there's a right and wrong.
    Punishment was cure for those who dare cross the line.
    But it must not be true for jerk-offs just like you.
    And maybe it's just bullshit. I should play god and shoot you myself.
    Tired of waiting.
    Consequences dictate course of action.
    And it doesn't matter what's right.
    It's only wrong if you get caught.
    If consequences dictate my course of action I should,
    I should play god and just shoot you myself.
    Tired of waiting.
    Die.
    Shoot it.
    Kick it.
    F**k it.
    Shoot you in your f**kin' head

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  8. WOW!! There are so many songs that seem to be about narcissism/narcissists!! It makes me wonder if these artists have personal experiences with these evil creatures! And all the songs that have been written by Alanis Morisset really makes me wonder...If she was a victim of narcissists, she managed to rise above it big time! XD


    Here is another song that reminds me very much of my family life and really seems to be about narcissism too. I don't think you would like the type of music coz it’s a bit loud (it is appropriate because it expresses the pain that these experiences cause and very well indeed) but it rings very true for me.


    Linkin Park-Numb

    I'm tired of being what you want me to be
    Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
    Don't know what you're expecting of me
    Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
    (Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
    Every step that I take is another mistake to you
    (Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

    [Chorus]
    I've become so numb I can't feel you there
    Become so tired so much more aware
    I'm becoming this all I want to do
    Is be more like me and be less like you

    Can't you see that you're smothering me
    Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
    Cause everything that you thought I would be
    Has fallen apart right in front of you
    (Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
    Every step that I take is another mistake to you
    (Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
    And every second I waste is more than I can take

    [Chorus]
    I've become so numb I can't feel you there
    Become so tired so much more aware
    I'm becoming this all I want to do
    Is be more like me and be less like you

    And I know
    I may end up failing too
    But I know
    You were just like me with someone disappointed in you

    [Chorus]
    I've become so numb I can't feel you there
    Become so tired so much more aware
    I'm becoming this all I want to do
    Is be more like me and be less like you

    [Chorus]
    I've become so numb I can't feel you there
    I'm tired of being what you want me to be
    I've become so numb I can't feel you there
    I'm tired of being what you want me to be

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  9. Another loud song, but fitting I think. I also think that it describes the crazy making behaviour of the narcissists and it describes how narcissists hi jack the consciences of the normal and decent: Linkin Park Papercut.


    Why does it feel like night today?
    Something in here's not right today.
    Why am I so uptight today?
    Paranoia's all I got left
    I don't know what stressed me first
    Or how the pressure was fed
    But I know just what it feels like
    To have a voice in the back of my head
    Like a face that I hold inside
    A face that awakes when I close my eyes
    A face watches every time I lie
    A face that laughs every time I fall
    (And watches everything)

    So I know that when it's time to sink or swim
    That the face inside is hearing me
    Right beneath my skin

    It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back
    It's like a whirlwind inside of my head
    It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
    It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin

    I know I've got a face in me
    Points out all my mistakes to me
    You've got a face on the inside too and
    Your paranoia's probably worse
    I don't know what set me off first
    But I know what I can't stand
    Everybody acts like the fact of the matter is
    I can't add up to what you can but

    Everybody has a face that they hold inside
    A face that awakes when I close my eyes
    A face watches every time they lie
    A face that laughs every time they fall
    (And watches everything)

    So you know that when it's time to sink or swim
    That the face inside is watching you too
    Right inside your skin

    [x2]
    It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back
    It's like a whirlwind inside of my head
    It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
    It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin

    The face inside is right beneath your skin [x3]

    The sun goes down
    I feel the light betray me
    The sun goes down
    I feel the light betray me

    The sun
    I feel the light betray me
    The sun
    I feel the light betray me

    It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back
    It's like a whirlwind inside of my head
    It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
    It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin

    It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back
    It's like a whirlwind inside of my head
    It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
    It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
    It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
    It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin

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  10. A not so noisy one, but it also seems to be about narcissism: Missy Higgins-Scar

    He left a card and a bar of soap with
    scrubbing brush next to a note,
    That said "use these down to your bones".
    And before I knew I had shiny skin and
    it felt easy being clean like him,
    I thought "this one knows better than I do"

    A triangle trying to squeeze through a circle
    He tried to cut me so I'd fit

    And doesn't that sound familiar?
    Doesn't that hit too close to home?
    Doesn't that make you shiver; the way things could've gone?
    And doesn't it feel peculiar that everyone wants a little more. So that I do remember to never go that far,
    Could you leave me with a scar?

    So the next one came with a bag of treats,
    She smelled like sugar and spoke like the sea
    She told me don't, trust them trust me.
    Then she pulled at my stitches one by one,
    Looked at my insides clicking her tongue,

    And said "This will all have to come undone".

    A triangle trying to squeeze through a circle,
    She tried to blunt me so I'd fit.

    And doesn't that sound familiar?
    Doesn't that hit too close to home?
    Doesn't that make you shiver;
    the way things could have gone?
    And doesn't it feel peculiar,
    that everyone wants a little more?
    So that I do remember to never go that far,
    Could you leave me with a scar?

    I think I realized just in time,
    about my old self was hard to find.
    You can bathe me in your finest wine but I'll never give you mine.
    'Cos I'm a little bit tired of fearing that
    I'll be the bad fruit nobody buys,
    Tell me, did you think we'd all dream the same?

    And doesn't that sound familiar?
    Doesn't that hit too close to home?
    Doesn't that make you shiver;
    the way things could have gone?
    And doesn't it feel peculiar
    that everyone wants a little more?
    so that I do remember to never go that far,
    Could you leave me with a scar?
    could you leave me with a scar? ah-ah-ah.

    could you leave me with a scar

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  11. This song makes me wonder if she was also a victim of a narcissist: Kelly Clarkson-Because of You



    I will not make the same mistakes that you did
    I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
    I will not break the way you did
    You fell so hard
    I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

    Because of you
    I will never stray too far from the sidewalk
    Because of you
    I learned to play on the safe side
    So I don't get hurt
    Because of you
    I find it hard to trust
    Not only me, but everyone around me
    Because of you
    I am afraid

    I lose my way
    And it's not too long before you point it out
    I cannot cry
    Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
    I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
    Every day of my life
    My heart can't possibly break
    When it wasn't even whole to start with

    Because of you
    I will never stray too far from the sidewalk
    Because of you
    I learned to play on the safe side
    So I don't get hurt
    Because of you
    I find it hard to trust
    Not only me, but everyone around me
    Because of you
    I am afraid

    I watched you die
    I heard you cry
    Every night in your sleep
    I was so young
    You should have known better than to lean on me
    You never thought of anyone else
    You just saw your pain
    And now I cry
    In the middle of the night
    For the same damn thing

    Because of you
    I will never stray too far from the sidewalk
    Because of you
    I learned to play on the safe side
    So I don't get hurt
    Because of you
    I tried my hardest just to forget everything
    Because of you
    I don't know how to let anyone else in
    Because of you
    I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
    Because of you
    I am afraid

    Because of you
    Because of you

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  12. Hi again! Just in case I mucked up my comment posting (like accidently posting comments on the wrong blog entry! ^^; ) The comments with song lyrics are meant to go on "If a Narcissist Had an Anthem..." post. I get a bit confused with what I written because I can't see how my comments turned out after I posted them because you obviously have to review them before they're posted (some of the responses to your previous posts have shown us that there are some REAL morons out there. :-( ). Thanx for your patience with me! :-)

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  13. Just finished my millionth relationship with a narcissist. While I am disgusted with myself, for obvious reasons, I also feel empowered because I ended this last relationship relatively early and pieced together the problem faster than the last. I think I have finally learned some of the narcissistic personality, tell tale signs and am bound and determined to not fall into the web of abuse and lies again. This is the song that he dedicated to himself as his theme song when I dumped his sorry butt: Every Me and Every You by Placebo:
    Sucker love is heaven sent.
    You pucker up, our passion's spent.
    My hearts a tart, your body's rent.
    My body's broken, yours is bent.

    Carve your name into my arm.
    Instead of stressed, I lie here charmed.
    Cuz there's nothing else to do,
    Every me and every you.

    Sucker love, a box I choose.
    No other box I choose to use.
    Another love I would abuse,
    No circumstances could excuse.

    In the shape of things to come.
    Too much poison come undone.
    Cuz there's nothing else to do,
    Every me and every you.
    Every me and every you,
    Every Me...he

    Sucker love is known to swing.
    Prone to cling and waste these things.
    Pucker up for heavens sake.
    There's never been so much at stake.

    I serve my head up on a plate.
    It's only comfort, calling late.
    Cuz there's nothing else to do,
    Every me and every you.
    Every me and every you,
    Every Me...he

    Every me and every you,
    Every Me...he

    Like the naked leads the blind.
    I know I'm selfish, I'm unkind.
    Sucker love I always find,
    Someone to bruise and leave behind.

    All alone in space and time.
    There's nothing here but what here's here's mine.
    Something borrowed, something blue.
    Every me and every you.
    Every me and every you,
    Every Me...he

    Every me and every you,
    Every Me...he (x4)

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  14. This.
    "I'm A Ruin" - Marina and The Diamonds

    I know that I can’t have it all
    But without you I am afraid I’ll fall
    I know I’m playing with your heart
    And I could treat you better but I’m not that smart

    When it comes to love, you’re an easy fight
    A flower in a gun, a bird in flight
    It isn’t fair and it isn’t right
    To lead you on like it’s all alright

    I played with your heart
    And I could treat you better but I’m not that smart
    You still mean everything to me
    But I wanna be free

    I’ll ruin, yeah, I’ll ruin you
    I’ve been doing things I shouldn’t do

    [2x]
    Yeah, uh huh, ooh, yeah
    Yeah, uh huh, ooh, yeah

    It’s difficult to move on
    When nothing was right and nothing’s wrong
    You still can’t look me in the eye
    'Cause you’ve been bitten once and now you’re twice as shy

    I’ve had my share of beautiful men
    But I’m still young and I wanna love again
    It’s difficult to say goodbye
    And easier to live a lover’s lie

    And I’ve tried to say
    Babe, I’m gonna ruin you if you let me stay
    You still mean everything to me, to me
    But I wanna be free

    I’ll ruin, yeah, I’ll ruin you
    I’ve been doing things I shouldn't do

    [2x]
    Yeah, uh huh, ooh, yeah

    It doesn’t feel right and it doesn’t feel fair
    When I’m planning to move on and you’re still standing there
    Don’t wanna keep a secret but I don’t know how to keep it fair, yeah

    I’ll ruin, yeah, I’ll ruin you
    I’ve been doing things I shouldn’t do

    But I don’t wanna say goodbye
    But, baby, I don’t wanna lie
    To lie, to lie to you
    I’m a ruin

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