tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32237145.post2020659167380944597..comments2024-03-16T14:19:24.563-06:00Comments on Narcissists Suck: Celebrate Life in the New YearAnna Valerioushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02537877317873251678noreply@blogger.comBlogger33125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32237145.post-11921213035766139142017-09-16T13:13:11.411-06:002017-09-16T13:13:11.411-06:00Great article, and I feel the same way! However, I...Great article, and I feel the same way! However, I'm starting to believe that a narcissistic suicide threat is a veiled threat to the one that is chosen to hear it. You could very well be their murder victim. We all know that a narcissist lies as easily as they breath; everything they say is backwards and upside down. Ergo: "I'm going to kill myself" can very easily mean, "I'm going to kill you!" They rarely do their own dirty work, if they can help it. They may hire it out to a flying monkey, or make you do his biding for him by driving you to commit the murder -- get you to commit suicide! Any death threat should be taken seriously, and help should be sought out, but if they succeed in committing suicide,then they only have themselves to blame!To keep from being his murder victim, it doesn't hurt to take their threat of self murder as an indication that they may, or will try to murder you instead.Truly, narcissists suck!TheBereangirlhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01103557723272805558noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32237145.post-55322781096284812062017-09-06T20:26:54.867-06:002017-09-06T20:26:54.867-06:00So any blog, even semi dormant, that attracts read...So any blog, even semi dormant, that attracts readers will attract narcissists who need to fill their narcissistic supply because the blog attracts readers. Even though the blog denigrates them. That's wonderfully ironic.<br />autosomal<br />irony part two Says that Most Psychologists don't really want to to treat victims of narcissism because that would be self defeating. They don't want to share your income and attention with another Narcissist. <br /><br />My phone says capitalization and sentence structure be damned because it's its own machine and rules be damned. I truly am living in a dystopian nightmare. Or just another night at home. Take your pick.tylerchillhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05153408509890930119noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32237145.post-29076920581233580792016-05-22T13:25:11.453-06:002016-05-22T13:25:11.453-06:00A big thank you Anna!!! Because, I learned so much...A big thank you Anna!!! Because, I learned so much about a NM in a short time...this wil definitely make my healing journey faster. Thank you sooo much!! Bless you. PR.PRhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14887352385917345534noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32237145.post-70382622166258292432016-01-17T11:53:04.970-07:002016-01-17T11:53:04.970-07:00Dear David,
"To sum up, it is because we hav...Dear David,<br /> "To sum up, it is because we have learned at the knees of a narcissist how to reinterpret, misinterpret and endure how they mistreat us. We put a positive construction on their behaviors"... EXACTLY. In essence our childhood groomed us to see nutty, destructive, evil towards us and others as 'not so bad' or justifiable because of (insert 'bad childhood' 'stressful time in life' 'health condition' and others into infinity). As if someone could poop on your face and we'll do back flips to find some compassionate, "well, I could see why that happened..." response.<br />In May 2012, on mother's day, I oddly came across the definition of narcissism, and recognized my family of origin as rip roaring narcs. I was still unbelievably living in the same town as them and had contact. By October I'd sold my house, moved to a new town, and started my own business. I thought I was on fire, and in many respects I was. But I still did those back flips to find compassionate (seemingly) explanations for bad behavior, despite curtailing a lot of it after reading Anna's blog, I still didn't fully "get it" (and for Pete's sake she maps it out so clearly... it's like layers of an onion, I'd only healed superficially in some aspects but thought I understood everything through and through). <br /><br />Jan 11 last year, three days after your divorce, I discovered mold in the home I was living in and bailed, helpless, to go stay with a church friend. My health destroyed, business lost. This church friend turned out to be a sociopath. He placed gps on my phone, stalked me, nearly killed me. No health, no resources, old narc friends replaced with new narc friends and now no family, I found myself homeless, sleeping in the backyard of a woman this summer. My faith in myself and having learned about narcissism so completely damaged. <br /><br />Youtube, of all things, has now helped me the most to pull out of this. I have concrete things in my life, obviously, that need further addressing. But I'm OK. Sheandoah (oh she's feisty!), Narcissism Survivor, Annabel Lee, Escape from Narcissism, Ollie Matthews (pulls no punches, I really like him) and others have helped solidify and put into practice the things in Anna's blog that is the cornerstone to my awakening to narcissism and how un-Christian and unkind tolerating this kind of influence is (when of course narcs or modern spiritualism or pop psych tenants try and keep you enslaved by convincing you you're a better person for tolerating or 'working with' such evil, that indeed you can choose yourself and God's plans for you instead of theirs). Personally, I'd avoid Sam Vaknin's videos, it's like taking advice from the devil as he pretends to be your friend. But of course use your own discernment in what you hear, and take what helps and leave what doesn't since all of these hosts are only human too.<br /><br />Hope that helps. I think you can really hit ROCK rock bottom and still come back. With God ALL things are possible. I feel like my real life is starting now. Don't fault yourself for having grown up on Mars. We've seen the dark side, but I think when we come out of it we'll have tools and strengths that others will be relatively lacking in by not having been through the fire, the experiences, we have. <br /><br />Yes, life is precious. Just focus on kicking ass on the number one best things for yourself, and for others (that deserve it!!! don't feed evil, listen to your gut, it's right, don't keep stuffing it like we've been trained too - speaking of 'The Gift of Fear' is an excellent read). I am a completely different person from the one I was last year. I am excited about life. Just keep going, you're closer than you think......xoAnonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10407092814796373389noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32237145.post-25008982087895981322015-12-22T09:56:44.990-07:002015-12-22T09:56:44.990-07:00You ARE healing, David. It takes time. This blog...You ARE healing, David. It takes time. This blog is dedicated to learning. The learning is to inform and to change thinking. Changed thinking will, over time, change feelings. Until then, there is no shame that you fell for a woman who ended up being a narcissist. I have observed on this blog that it is quite common for people raised by narcissists to end up marrying one or being in close relationships with one or a series of them. To sum up, it is because we have learned at the knees of a narcissist how to reinterpret, misinterpret and endure how they mistreat us. We put a positive construction on their behaviors. We do sense evil at times, but we've been taught to look no further than ourselves for its source. All this training needs to be unlearned. That is what my blog is attempting to help others to do. Thank you for taking better care of yourself, David. Keep learning. Life is so precious. Waste as little of it on narcissists as you can.Anna Valerioushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02537877317873251678noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32237145.post-85766545559275040692015-12-22T02:40:05.373-07:002015-12-22T02:40:05.373-07:00Dear Anna, for the past 3 days i have been reading...Dear Anna, for the past 3 days i have been reading reading your posts. I have had no contact with my NPD mother and her husband for 17 years, your story reminded me of my life as a child standing on a stool to wash dishes,ironing white shirts, doing laundry, house cleaning, it was never enough. My sister and i would be whipped with a belt, punched and kicked, we had numerous doctor visits to get stitches and once to have a broken bone set and we always lied about how it happened. I ran away after the 11th grade to join the Army. I thought i was free from NPDS and lived my life, i thought i was the only one and lived with a strange sense of shame and fear. I am 6 FT. and 180 and i still feel fearful. I married a women and guess what, within a couple of years i found myself taking care of the house cleaning, cooking, dishes everything and i was happy to do it, truly. Over time she slowly became demeaning and angry but never in front of others. Her mother married 3 times always the result of affairs with her first husband my exs father committing suicide.I feel ashamed that i did not recognize the strange stare, lack of empathy and lies. The 17 years of no contacts represents my 17 year marriage to a women who i found out after she left had been having affairs all along. I did the no contact to protect my wife from the crazies, kind of ironic. I thought her complete lack of emotion was strength, i thought her arrogance and need to be the center of attention was kind of sad. Since Jan.8,15 when the divorce was final i have worked to build a new life, I miss my kids. I had a breakdown lost 30 lbs was prescribed an antidepressant, Xanax and ambien, took them daily for 5 weeks , woke up one day looked into the mirror and was horrified at what i saw. I flushed the drugs down the toilet, started eating and joined a yoga class which i attend daily. Each day i tell myself that i can make it to tomorrows class and i do. Haven't missed a day in 5 months. I cannot understand how i could have fallen for a women who after a time became so abusive and i just felt bad and tried harder. Any advice on healing ? Much love DavidAnonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05993194741964447989noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32237145.post-62067861749753692772015-11-26T19:57:35.310-07:002015-11-26T19:57:35.310-07:00I just found this blog... As I look with dread to ...I just found this blog... As I look with dread to the upcoming Christmas season, searching for answers to help me survive the annual hell-ride that is one of the hyper-dysfunctional branches of the extended family, I find their actions reflected in the words of this blog. Right down the their use of their Christian faith (as they define it) to add God's weight to their words of control and manipulation. Earlier this year one of them unexpectedly approached me at church and informed me she'd had a prophetic word that God was calling me to spend more time with her. I am increasingly convinced that I am dealing with narcissists here. At least 3 of them. I have undergone 3 years of my own psychotherapy in that time to help my own healing process... but I am now fairly certain that my safest route is to avoid Christmas altogether. Thank you for sharing your journey.FiKaLohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08887749621567736093noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32237145.post-56843396772773351462015-11-07T06:54:22.261-07:002015-11-07T06:54:22.261-07:00Anna, I read several of your posts on your old blo...Anna, I read several of your posts on your old blog and you are a genius...I wish you would write a book and email me first to buy it. <br /><br />Your way with words is right on. Your insight has that of humor and reality and you say it in a way that brings tears to my eyes. <br /><br />I believe every word you have said. I think you have an insight that the therapists don't know.. I too am the daughter of an evil narcissistic mother who used me for years. Janhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14416579853085835780noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32237145.post-75741114846866568682015-06-20T16:49:53.601-06:002015-06-20T16:49:53.601-06:00Thanks a million for your love over the years- I t...Thanks a million for your love over the years- I too have moved on with my eyes looking towards a bright future & not feeding the NPD's with any more of my precious time and attention God Bless xxxLois Barleycorn Dickenshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02294840927503709787noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32237145.post-3283320764845197122015-04-17T06:51:04.850-06:002015-04-17T06:51:04.850-06:00Teah Akrish said...
I don't want to admit tha...Teah Akrish said...<br /><br />I don't want to admit that she can never change for the better.<br /><br />SHE WILL NOT CHANGE.<br /><br />God has nothing to do with this.KARMA MRA MGTOWhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03888644579813460993noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32237145.post-31024009974135505892015-03-24T13:54:30.547-06:002015-03-24T13:54:30.547-06:00Currently dealing with my NPD mother-in-law. Peopl...Currently dealing with my NPD mother-in-law. People say I care for her as if she were my own mother. I truly want to see her happy, but yet, have seen through her games from the very beginning when she back-stabbed my future-husband, her son, to my face. I was shocked. As a disciple of Jesus Christ, I do my best to love her as a child of God, and try to support her in realizing the truth of her evil actions. I don't know if I'm doing any good. Right now, I'm trying to find my boundaries. Part of the issue is, she's so old and was just recently placed in a retirement home, and having a very hard time with it. I admit, I'm falling for her crying games. Yet, it's so hard to just stand by when someone is suffering so much. I keep reminding myself, she's not really suffering. She's in the nicest retirement home in the area. She's gets all meals prepared, her laundry done, new people to tell her lies to, and activities if she wants. It's when she gets into her room alone at night when she freaks out and calls me, crying. I can barely take a 5 minute phone call from her, she terrorizes so much.I admit, I'm consumed with confusion in what to do. I don't want to admit that she can never change for the better.Teah Akrishhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12335798442743851048noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32237145.post-72973108885165404122015-02-20T14:44:55.976-07:002015-02-20T14:44:55.976-07:00Hi Anna, I really love your blog and it inspired m...Hi Anna, I really love your blog and it inspired me enough to write my own personal story with some subtle hints on how to recognize narcissistic abuse.. Would really love it if you could check it out and let me know what you think.. I am still in the healing phase right now but I am getting stronger..<br />http://www.elephantjournal.com/2015/02/how-to-recognize-narcissistic-abuse/Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32237145.post-28015838888570836872015-02-16T14:51:37.121-07:002015-02-16T14:51:37.121-07:00You hit the nail on the head!!! At some point we g...You hit the nail on the head!!! At some point we get to saturation levels and we know we've figured it out and suffered enough... time to live in the truth we have come to understand. I like what Elizabeth Smart's mother said to her when they were reunited after the 9-month kidnapping/rape ordeal: "He may have stolen 9 months from you, but do not allow him to steal one more minute of your life!" And she didn't. She is a triumph. May we all be the same.Umuhozahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02706977436154676735noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32237145.post-28087399869220242002015-02-16T00:33:39.848-07:002015-02-16T00:33:39.848-07:00Thank you for this post about Narcissists. I have ...Thank you for this post about Narcissists. I have PTSD from living with narcissists. I appreciate your idea of living in the truth, no matter what others have to say about it. The narcissists try to confuse truth and create your reality to their advantage. I know it all too well.<br />Thank you again. I loved the post<br />AnnieAnonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07008778597247183169noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32237145.post-79754477111279407692015-01-27T08:31:50.565-07:002015-01-27T08:31:50.565-07:00You absolutely RULE! Thanks for the good advice. M...You absolutely RULE! Thanks for the good advice. Many you and yours grow, love and prosper...triadcatzhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18244847188972408302noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32237145.post-41312898596667089632015-01-20T21:17:34.073-07:002015-01-20T21:17:34.073-07:00Anna, I understand why you don't want to blog ...Anna, I understand why you don't want to blog anymore, because you have built up an impressive canon here. But I hope you are proud of the work you produced here that has been so helpful to so many. I also hope that you might someday consider putting some of your blog entries into book form to perhaps reach a larger audience and because I truly believe it should be in use by those in the mental health profession who truly want to be able to recognize evildoers and their abuse of the innocent.Katherinehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07918305856850381141noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32237145.post-41887873053641904842015-01-13T09:41:09.617-07:002015-01-13T09:41:09.617-07:00dc c,
I feel for your struggles and hurt. The har...dc c,<br />I feel for your struggles and hurt. The hardest thing in my life was discovering my mom had NPD. May I share the 3 things that really helped me the most to come to terms with that information?<br /><br />1. I had to forgive myself completely for having the hopeful expectations that I would ever have or experience a normal mother for the rest of my life.<br /><br />2. I had to accept at all levels of being (heart, soul, intellectually) that my 'Nom' would never change no matter what I tried to do. I had to fully release her to God who is the only one who can truly care for her.<br /><br />3. Some may call this transference, but I call it life saving on so many levels.... I understand that I am an orphan and as such I accepted Jesus Christ as my Father, Protector and Savior. The peace I have with that acceptance is so comforting, calming and safe. I now have a real home, family and all His loving guidance to help me through this life. <br /><br />I didn't find Anna's blog until late in my 'Nom' game, but she helped so much in defining and filling in the missing pieces for how to continue healing. Read her whole blog if you can, it's truly amazing..... Best of love and luck to you.Cyndeehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05857696545343157241noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32237145.post-78461367127150494242015-01-10T20:39:24.553-07:002015-01-10T20:39:24.553-07:00Cyndee, I was their personal slave, who never did ...Cyndee, I was their personal slave, who never did anything right and when I finally said ENOUGH! within two months they "secretly" moved to the retirement residence to punish me. What a good laugh I had because it was the 1st decent thing they had ever done for me. I was suddenly free of the worry and guilt, knowing they are well cared for in an appropriate environment. I sent them a thank you card when they let me know what they'd done.<br />According to them, the staff at the residence adore them, but so would I for $5000 a month!<br />After the move the I allowed the verbal abuse continued by phone, then almost four years ago, I stopped my father in mid rant and simply said, "I'm done". Click!<br />As for the staff, they've been told I have mental health issues, which is fine by me because I could care less what a bunch of well-paid strangers think of me.<br />At 69, I live a serene and peaceful life that I never believed was possible. People often ask me what I'll do when one of them gets ill or dies and my answer is always the same, "Cross that bridge when I come to it.", while secretly thinking, "If I cross it at all!"<br />If you're like me, whatever debt your parents conditioned you to believe you owed them, you have repaid it a thousand fold. Time for YOU to set YOURSELF free.<br />BTW The nasty avatar is courtesy of my younger brother, the narcissistic golden child, who much to my amusement, simply can't get me out of his head. I've been dishing out the worst possible punishment you can hand a narc...I ignore him!mulderfanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07500535934417551223noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32237145.post-6519366176353520142015-01-10T16:56:15.413-07:002015-01-10T16:56:15.413-07:00Mulderfan, I like your solution - it's the be...Mulderfan, I like your solution - it's the best of all worlds for N's - except I feel sorry for the staff having to deal with them day in and day out....<br />I do practice LC with my N-mom. My meek N-enabler dad 91, is in a nursing home being given better care than my N-mom could ever do for him when they lived together. I visit him a little more only when I know my N-mom will not be there. My N-mom 89 still lives independently in her house and I only visit her once a month with my husband to balance her checkbook and to get a sense that she can still care for herself well enough. I will never let her live in my house to give her eldercare, I will never be her chauffeur when it comes time to pull her drivers license and I will happily deliver her to the same low cost nursing home she stuck my dad in. I am certain at that point I will feel no obligation to make regular visits to her once she is in that rest home - NC time! <br />Thanks for your support and encouragement re: elder N's....they seem to live forever, don't they?Cyndeehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05857696545343157241noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32237145.post-37521258426342710872015-01-10T08:11:20.790-07:002015-01-10T08:11:20.790-07:00Cyndee, May parents are 92 and 95. They are well c...Cyndee, May parents are 92 and 95. They are well cared for in an upscale retirement residence. I have no contact with them.<br />My sanity is my #1 priority!mulderfanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07500535934417551223noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32237145.post-91137160850826720072015-01-09T19:53:29.844-07:002015-01-09T19:53:29.844-07:00Hi Anna,
Your blog on NPD is the best one I have e...Hi Anna,<br />Your blog on NPD is the best one I have ever read on the topic! Thank you so much for taking the time and care to share with all of us!! I love your insight, thoughtfulness, honesty and recommendations for making an ACON's life healed & healthy. You inspire me to see light at the end of the tunnel, especially when you include God's word which shines light on the Truth of evil. <br /><br />I found out I had an N-mom 12 years ago and it's been a long challenging struggle to create boundaries to manage her. Sadly, I am my parents eldercare support which puts me in touch with them regularly, but I am able to practice my boundaries and work on forgiveness during those times. I wish I could go NC, but it is not in the cards for me.... Your blog continues to give me hope, ideas and patience to deal with them while I have too....<br /><br />Again, thank you and God Bless you,Cyndeehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05857696545343157241noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32237145.post-14180161236381816192015-01-05T14:31:45.583-07:002015-01-05T14:31:45.583-07:00Hello Anna,
It's good to know that you remain...Hello Anna,<br /><br />It's good to know that you remain well and happy. I want to acknowledge that your words (and your deeds in putting your words out there) are a great comfort to me, time and time again. I've referred some fellow travellers - also on the path to recovery from abuse - to your site and you have helped them, too. I especially needed to read your thoughts on forgiveness, having been told countless times that I should forgive others "for my own good" almost regardless of their continuing abusive actions towards me. (After all, "that was in the past"!!!) I am stronger now, and have better boundaries. Along the way, though, many of my relationships have changed / ended and I am apparently variously considered by some others - those pesky flying monkeys - as erroneously thinking of myself as superior to others, or mentally ill, or just strange. Whatever. Your insightful and beautifully written articles have been very relevant and enormously helpful. Thank you so much.JenMarhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13412738744784476513noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32237145.post-83179913761256500272015-01-04T18:49:07.515-07:002015-01-04T18:49:07.515-07:00Thanks Anna. I hated to bring that up, but felt I...Thanks Anna. I hated to bring that up, but felt I needed to. I think the real me is a big mouth and I will speak things even if the convention is not to. <br /><br />It is so important to be tranquil most of the time. To enjoy life to the fullest now that the truth is out. It would have been impossible before. <br /><br />And I still comfort myself with your blog, which is the first one I came to. Without it it would have been difficult to rid myself of the horrible parasite that I was born attached to.Joan Shttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07775873193806083833noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32237145.post-6545872168652089032015-01-04T18:00:38.361-07:002015-01-04T18:00:38.361-07:00Joan,
I was specially in generalities and in spec...Joan,<br /><br />I was specially in generalities and in specific. Generally speaking, I was saying that if a person has educated themselves <i>and</i> freed themselves from narcissists then it may be time to think about something else. This is my situation; but I don't assume it is everyone else's situation. I was more specifically talking about my own reasons for not continuing to blog on the subject. Of course, I have the good feeling that comes from knowing that my blog continues to live on and speak to those looking for answers. It can do that without me which is great for me! If you know you need to keep yourself refreshed on the topic then do what you need to do. You know best how your mind works. Don't read my post as a command into your own life. If it doesn't fit, don't wear it. I certainly am not asking people to be silent on the subject. I'm certainly not. As I said already, my blog speaks continually to anyone who manages to bump into it. I'm not silencing myself. I'm not silencing anyone. I'm just hoping people don't get stuck in the negative. I heartily agree that evil will always be with us as long as life on earth continues. <br /><br />I also heartily believe we should all be well informed and armored up for our next run-in with evil. But if life has reached a tranquil place, I'm just hoping people will take the opportunity to be tranquil in their own head space. Reminds me of Psalm 23 where the Good Shepard is praised for leading us beside the still waters and restoring our souls. Take time for restoration. It's important. Anna Valerioushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02537877317873251678noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32237145.post-90638135026090635412015-01-04T17:35:31.802-07:002015-01-04T17:35:31.802-07:00I have been seriously pondering this for days.
I ...I have been seriously pondering this for days.<br /><br />I choose to live an absolute reality. I agree it can suck at times, but I choose it regardless of the cost. Maybe I don't understand what your saying, but the truth is narcissists will exist as long as the earth. I feel it is imperative to keep up the big mouths, talking against it. At least on the internet, it is a small voice, but it is there. It was there for me when I first started seeking help, and I want to be there for others. To make this the future. Not about the evil (but it is there) but the sheer knowledge of it. I have been delivered of so much torment since.<br /><br />It is my opinion of course, and I don't know if this is what you are saying, but I am training myself to speak more but that comes with some risks. I was the child of abuse, and continued a life of being a human target. <br /><br />The first thing I thought of was my shame of being in my 40's discovering this and expecting the other ACON's to be much younger. We are all at least in our 40's and only a few in their 30's. Maybe we can make a difference and help others before they have to reach this age.<br /><br />I do want to help myself too, of course. I'm afraid of not reading about it daily, I will forget. So I keep replenishing my mind with the knowledge.<br /><br />I was raised as a hollowed out husk, what else can I do?Joan Shttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07775873193806083833noreply@blogger.com